My weekend was awesome. Saturday I got a message from Parkinson about how it had been way too long since we had hung out last and that he was sorry about it. This blew me away, I wasn't expecting it at all. See, a lot of stuff happened towards the end of the summer between our little 'group' we used to hang out in. Me and Park were best friends basically but our friendship was kinda destroyed for a while. I would go into detail about it but I don't want to bring up any past problems. It's awesome that we are cool friends again but his parents don't want us to hang out. I have to respect their wishes although I don't agree with them. Hopefully it will all blow over soon, I just wish there was a way for me to help speed up the process.

Sunday I went to bible study with Derek and Burnham. It was really interesting as usual. I feel so distant from God and when I go to church I feel so uncomfortable but, when I am at bible study it's the total opposite. I think it's because I get to interpret God's word the way I understand it instead of someone telling me what it says. I believe that God wants people to have a private relationship with him so he can guide you without the interference of others. I believe that God helps you through life with the information you get from The Bible, not what some guy yelling at a crowd from a stage tells you. I know a lot of people wouldn't agree with the statements I've made here but thats what I feel is true. Isn't that what it's all about anyway? What you feel and what your personal beliefs are in God.

Park came to small group too. At first it was awkward, but by the end of the night it was like we had never been apart. I even rode home with him. The only problem with that was Derek and Burnham thought it would be a good idea to tell Park's parents. I don't quite understand their reasoning behind that decision but I'm not gonna let it bother me.

"Communicate God's word as if we are running out of time."

This was the passage Clay, the group leader, gave us. He wants us to put it to use and keep track of it. He wants us to actively use this idea in our lives. To me we are running out of time. I mean when you think about it, every second that passes is a moment closer the end. Whether it's The Rapture, or your death. You can't escape the end and your final judgment by God. I guess what I am trying to say is that whe are running out of time. People, including myself, need to wake up and realize this fact. You can't stop time until you're ready for the end. It's out of your hands.

One more thing before I wrap this up... I just got a card in the mail notifying me that I signed up for selective service. What a load of crap. I am totally against war for any reason. Who am I to go to another country and blow someone's head off just because my Government doesn't agree with his Government? It's a total sham. Taking lives does not solve anything.